So yesterday I left my baby with my mother in law and my husband , and went to town to do my nails and get a few things for the house all by myself for the very first time.
All I can say is WOW ! Although it was quite sad and made me nervous to leave her , it did me the world of good to be by-myself a little bit .
I realized that it really is a necessity to take a break , we live in a rural area and babysitting (unless it is in laws) is not an option , although I am very blessed to be able to look after my baby myself , it does get to me to not do anything else and to not see other adults .
I had a nice few hours in town , and when I came back I could handle her teething and everything else , and it made me so jealous of other moms that get to work , even half day , I do go into the lodge everyday , but I take her with , and only spend about an hour there before she lets me know its time to leave 🙈
Thats why I think these little breaks are so important – absence makes the heart grow fonder , just a little reboot so to speak , just so you can appreciate everything again !
Heres to many more little breaks 🎉
Lets get real for a second here , you get mothers that gain a minimal weight , and just look AMAZING a month after giving birth , and then you get mothers like ME …
I gained about 25-30 kg during my pregnancy …. its an insane amount of weight , looked like a baby elephant 🐘🤣🙈
And yes I have lost weight since then (4 and a half months post partum now) but not nearly where I would like to be ! I haven’t even gotten on a scale yet because I know it will just upset me , ignorance is bliss I say !
I know everyone always says you have to be proud of your body , because it went through so much , but I just am not , I don’t like the sagging belly thing that I now seem to have at the age of 27, I am not proud of the fact that my back gets sore now when I bend down too much in the day and I am not proud of the fact that I try to dress in the bathroom so that my husband doesn’t see me naked in the light 🙈🙈
It is insane what we all go through , and every mom experiences this is one way or another , your body is just so different after giving birth , but I must say , I am much stronger mentally and emotionally , I can multi task like a pro and handle so many more emotions all at once , and still somehow keep it together (or try to atleast) because I know there is this little princess that needs me to keep my shit together so to speak ! 💪🏻
I will just always try to better myself , and I refuse to believe that this is just the way my body is now , step by step , we will get there !
Pic of my beautiful little girl who is just so worth every roll of fat 🤣😘😍
So about 3 weeks ago , we started sleep regression …… if you read my posts there were A LOT about it hahaha
My husband and I even started to question literally everything we have been doing , all our methods , we even got into a few fights over it because it felt like he was telling me that everything I do with her was wrong , needless to say , it was a tough time for us !
Well ….. it passed !!!!
She has honestly been the best baby in the world the past 5 days ! It has been amazing , she sleeps , she plays , she eats , she smiles , she laughs , she even rolled over today for the first time !
What a relief ! I can honestly say , that every mom going through this must just hang in there , don’t go and change your routine to adapt to it , because it does blow over I promise.
Yay for Paige ! 👏🏻🤣
Have you ever heard people say “your baby is happy because she can feel that you as a parent are relaxed”
Well first off , I don’t feel relaxed EVER ! haha , as a first time mom , this whole thing is nerve wracking 🤣
But it is such a huge compliment to hear that , and I do believe it to some extend , babies feed off of their parents , they watch us and they learn from us , being a good example is the very definition of good parenting !
When I was breastfeeding , I struggled so much , with everything , I had baby blues , she would not latch , I second guessing myself around every corner , and she was sooo difficult, looking back now , I think she could sense how stressed and unsure I was about everything !
Isn’t it amazing how with time , it really does get easier ? You hear people say it , but you don’t believe it because its chaos the first few weeks and even months ! But it really does.
Time is an amazing thing ! ❤️
Babies LOVE routine !
Before I had Paige , I also used to like and even crave some sort of structure in my life and more specifically, in my daily routine !
Somehow , now having a baby , I struggle to get into a day routine with her , I try my best , but life , or my life , is just not always as predictable as we would like it to be !
I would time her first nap for the day and have the whole day planned out , and then boom , its noon and she hasn’t slept yet and I don’t know what happened to half of my day .
See , we live and work in a set up that allows for so many distractions and people in and out our house and running to the lodge quickly or answering a phone because someone else is busy , it seems like small deeds , but when you look at your watch again you missed the “nap window” and have now entered a very dangerous area known as over tiredness and over stimulation 🙈👀 It’s CHAOS !
And even though I know this , somehow it always still creeps up on me !
So , as I am writing this , I am sitting in my baby’s room waiting for her to fall asleep in her cot , and right on time too ! (Yay me)
So heres to having more of a routine !