Hard Days Are For Growth

Today I am just so emotional and emotionally drained .

My baby girl refused to nap today , she only had 3 20 minute naps in her pram , the WHOLE DAY ! And she is not even 5 months yet , when I put her in her bed she screamed uncontrollably!

Its heartbreaking to say the least , it touches my soul , there is just no other way to explain it , my hands have been sweating the whole day , I’ve cried 3 times already , and then my husband tells me I am uptight today (men right)

But seriously , how intense is this love ? I have always heard that when your child hurts , you hurt , but have never experienced it myself yet , until today that is , everything is just out of wack , I don’t feel like myself , I want to cry all the time !

But I know tomorrow will be better !

Thank goodness I have a blog so that I can offload on all you great listeners 🧡

Angelique

No Woman Has Ever Calmed Down By Being Told To Calm Down

I mean , where have you ever !? 🤣

Please tell me that I am not the only one having these fights ? Those ones that start out disguised as your typical marriage fight and then the words “just calm down” or “its not that bad just calm down” are uttered and suddenly its a whole new ballgame 🙈

But all jokes aside , marriage is HARD people , haha , my husband and I live on the same property as our business , which means we see each other all the time , and its great to have him help with Paige during the day sometimes !

BUT , you can only imagine how much time this gives us to get in each others business and how much time this gives us to pick fights with each other 🤣

And then , when he does go away for a week to go hunting or something , it sucks to be here all alone and not have family or friends nearby , you just cant win ! Haha

When we do move , it will be a hell of an adjustment to not see each other during the day , but I also believe it will do us some good , in so many ways , we each will have our own careers and get to share that at the end of the day , we get to miss each other a little bit you know !?

ps. I am sitting here in Paige’s room writing as she is staring at me from her cot …. sleeping still not going according to plan if anyone was wondering 🤣😫🤫

Angeliqur

Rocking The Mom Bod | Not

Lets get real for a second here , you get mothers that gain a minimal weight , and just look AMAZING a month after giving birth , and then you get mothers like ME …

I gained about 25-30 kg during my pregnancy …. its an insane amount of weight , looked like a baby elephant 🐘🤣🙈

And yes I have lost weight since then (4 and a half months post partum now) but not nearly where I would like to be ! I haven’t even gotten on a scale yet because I know it will just upset me , ignorance is bliss I say !

I know everyone always says you have to be proud of your body , because it went through so much , but I just am not , I don’t like the sagging belly thing that I now seem to have at the age of 27, I am not proud of the fact that my back gets sore now when I bend down too much in the day and I am not proud of the fact that I try to dress in the bathroom so that my husband doesn’t see me naked in the light 🙈🙈

It is insane what we all go through , and every mom experiences this is one way or another , your body is just so different after giving birth , but I must say , I am much stronger mentally and emotionally , I can multi task like a pro and handle so many more emotions all at once , and still somehow keep it together (or try to atleast) because I know there is this little princess that needs me to keep my shit together so to speak ! 💪🏻

I will just always try to better myself , and I refuse to believe that this is just the way my body is now , step by step , we will get there !

Pic of my beautiful little girl who is just so worth every roll of fat 🤣😘😍

Angelique

You Are Spoiling Your Baby

So I am sure I am not the only one who has a grandmother in law that yells “you are spoiling her” whenever she sees my husband pushing Paige in the pram to sleep …. 🤣

In all honesty though this makes me so mad , for so many reasons; first , at this stage I will do WHATEVER it takes to get her to sleep, whether that means I must stand on my head humming a lullaby , so be it !

Second of all , I don’t believe that I can shower my baby with too much of anything quite frankly , she is only starting to see all the colors now , I mean , she does not understand why I am leaving her when she cries or why I don’t want to console her . Just thinking about this breaks my heart .

I will most probably be the strict parent between me and my husband , but at the appropriate age where she can learn right from wrong and understand consequences.

I honestly think this “spoiling ” thing is from the older generation , they all say and do it ….

At the end of the day , I would just prefer people disagreeing with my parenting in private , to their friends and husbands behind my back, like normal people 🤣

Cause quite frankly , its none of your business !

Angelique

Saturday Night fever

Did you ever think that you would enjoy just doing nothing so much ?

Since Paige was born , all I do is look forward to her bedtime haha ! I adore her and enjoy our time together so much , but I find myself missing the simple things; the listening to loud music , the watching a movie uninterrupted, going out for a movie or dinner, the things I took for granted before having a baby 🤰🏼

My husband and I do our best to spend time together when she goes to bed and to do something that we otherwise would not during the day. Although sometimes you are just too tired 💤

Before you have kids , people always tell you to enjoy each other first , take a few years and get to know each other because after you have children , you come second and you wont have time for any of that for quite a few years, boy were they right !

We were only married 4 months when we got pregnant , and although this experience so early on has made our bond stronger , it has surely been hard on our marriage as well , we are still getting to know each other , and what better way to do that than to put your marriage through intense pressure early on 🙈🤣

Everyone’s story is unique , but I love ours the most ! ❤️

Angelique