Little Feet and Tiny Toes

Aren’t baby feet just the best ? Like seriously , its my favorite part on my little girl , just to see that perfection in such miniature form ❤️

There is no way that anyone can look at a newborn and tell me that they don’t believe in God. 🙏🏻

Hearing your baby cry for the first time changes EVERYTHING , everything you thought was important just isn’t anymore, little fights and grudges seem like such a waste of time, the love you have or thought you had for people just does not compare , being a mom humbles you , for me it felt like all the little selfish thoughts I used to have disappeared , my baby girl became my everything in a sense , my husband still holds my heart , but this is just different , it’s overwhelming love , it really is like seeing your heart on the outside of your body !

Angelique

Happy Home

Have you ever heard people say “your baby is happy because she can feel that you as a parent are relaxed”

Well first off , I don’t feel relaxed EVER ! haha , as a first time mom , this whole thing is nerve wracking 🤣

But it is such a huge compliment to hear that , and I do believe it to some extend , babies feed off of their parents , they watch us and they learn from us , being a good example is the very definition of good parenting !

When I was breastfeeding , I struggled so much , with everything , I had baby blues , she would not latch , I second guessing myself around every corner , and she was sooo difficult, looking back now , I think she could sense how stressed and unsure I was about everything !

Isn’t it amazing how with time , it really does get easier ? You hear people say it , but you don’t believe it because its chaos the first few weeks and even months ! But it really does.

Time is an amazing thing ! ❤️

Angelique

Slippers | Mom Brain

Everyone always talks about pregnancy brain , but mom brain is definitely also a thing !

Motherly instinct for me runs so so deep , it even kind off overtakes all the other parts of my brain too , this type of love is just not normal compared to anything else , it’s overwhelming to say the least .

Take me for example , its winter here in South Africa , and I have literally been wearing my slippers for 4 months because my feet are still fat (yes that is a thing) and I just haven’t though of buying myself some shoes that actually fit , I have been to a mall in this time , but somehow I just end up buying thousands of onesies that Paige will grow out of in a weeks time 🤣

Not to mention the worrying , this is INTENSE ! I worry constantly ; is she warm enough , is she too warm , does she have enough blankets , is the monitor working , is the thermometer working, is she sick , what is that spot, that mark wasn’t there yesterday, why isn’t her hair growing, has she eaten enough, is she eating too much, maybe she is too chubby, is she sleeping enough, why has she been sleeping for so long ?

And the list just goes on and on and on …..

I sometimes find myself wondering ; how the hell am I going to survive the next 18 years ? And the next 18 after that ? I don’t think the worrying will ever end , it is a type of love that moves in into every part of your brain , your heart , your soul , your everything !

💜💜

Angelique

Alone Time | Some Self Reflection

I am someone who loves my alone time , I love to think , to reflect , to pray on things.

I lived alone for 7 years before I moved in with my husband , and even though I thought then that I miss my alone time , nothing prepared me for when I had my baby girl .

Now however, I am pretty sure she KNOWS when I sit down with a cup of tea , she just does ! Haha between her , work and my husband , there is just NO time for me … we don’t live near a town , so day care or nanny is out of the question until she goes to school or we move !

Although I love her to bits , I wish I could see other adults , or go for a coffee ! (For those of you who don’t know my situation , please read the first blog – babysmoo)

I don’t know how I will cope having two … 🙈😂

Angelique

Saturday Night fever

Did you ever think that you would enjoy just doing nothing so much ?

Since Paige was born , all I do is look forward to her bedtime haha ! I adore her and enjoy our time together so much , but I find myself missing the simple things; the listening to loud music , the watching a movie uninterrupted, going out for a movie or dinner, the things I took for granted before having a baby 🤰🏼

My husband and I do our best to spend time together when she goes to bed and to do something that we otherwise would not during the day. Although sometimes you are just too tired 💤

Before you have kids , people always tell you to enjoy each other first , take a few years and get to know each other because after you have children , you come second and you wont have time for any of that for quite a few years, boy were they right !

We were only married 4 months when we got pregnant , and although this experience so early on has made our bond stronger , it has surely been hard on our marriage as well , we are still getting to know each other , and what better way to do that than to put your marriage through intense pressure early on 🙈🤣

Everyone’s story is unique , but I love ours the most ! ❤️

Angelique