The “easy” child

I absolutely hate it when someone comes here and says “ooo she just whines , she doesn’t cry”

Uh yes she does !! Yes okay , she doesn’t have colic and doesn’t cry for hours on end , but she has cried and screamed for what seemed to be hours and I didn’t know what was wrong .

I guess why this upsets me is that people make it sound like its so easy to be a first time mom just because she didn’t cry in the two hours that they were here !!

I have been up since 4:30 with her and I literally woke my husband to take over , because shes tired and rubbing her eyes and screaming ! My palms start sweating and then I start crying to , and this is something only moms would understand because I feel like a bad mom for not being able to console my baby !

I have been through heartbreak , I have lost people , and yet , THIS RIGHT HERE IS THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD !

Rant over

Angelique

It Hurts me more than it hurts you 🙈

So today was injection day !

And oh my word , i swear it gets worse every time , i think im prepared and have creams and all handy and ready to go , and then she screams bloody murder without any end in sight …. its the WORST part of being a new mom so far !

My hands literally start sweating when she cries like this !

Being a mom has made me realize what it takes to be there for your child , and mine is not even 4 months old yet , so i still have to go through that first fall , the first heartbreak , the first day of school … and all that comes in between , and i already feel overwhelmed just thinking about all of it .

My mom and I dont have the best relationship , or should I say , not the one that I would have wanted , or want for me and my daughter , life happens and not everything is as black and white as what we would like , but being a mom I have realized how strong that “motherly instinct” is , i think of her ALL THE TIME ! I want her to be happy and comfortable l, I keep thinking “am I a good mother” …

I guess this is all just the beginning and I am so ready for what motherhood will have in store for me 💜

Angelique